Parapsychology Journalism: The People, The Theory, The Science, The Skeptics
I’m not one of those people who see ghosts or talk to guides. I’m not very good at all the more common stuff that people know as being psychic like telepathy or clairvoyance, but I am psychic nonetheless. So what is it that I do? I am examining this because as usual, I am not alone. If I’m not experiencing psychic ability this way, then there is someone else out there who is experiencing it in a similar way.
Ever since I was a kid, I have been able to feel the presence of life and personality. It comes in a flash and it works as well for trees and animals as it does for people. Even non living objects have a sort of presence to them, but it is not the same. When I am doing psychic healing it is a tangible thing. I can feel myself pushing energy around. In order to better describe this, I will occasionally compare it to fantasizing.
But what is it exactly that I’m sensing? What is going on? One thing that I notice is that when I tune in to people, animals or plants and trees, is that I do not have the sensation that I am sending or receiving this information. When I turn my attention to that subject, the information is already there. Precognition is the same thing. All the information is already available. If there are problems in receiving it, I have the feeling that this is not due to any difficulty with reception, but rather my ability to tune myself to it. That is to say, if I were better at this, the information would be clearer. I also have the feeling the lack of clarity is less due to a confused mind than one in fear. From what I’ve been able to determine, fear is so omnipresent in everyone, including animals and probably plants and trees as well and it is so strong, that it could easily account for for difficulties in accessing psychic information.
My own psychic ability seems to be tied to my growth as a person, which is directly related to my fear level. When I do my psychic healing, the thing that I’m good at, energy itself has a sort of buzz to it. There does not seem to be a set amount of energy I can sense or draw upon, but I do notice that it is something that is limited by my fear. There is only so much that I can take before the fear level gets too high and I simply can’t do anymore. I don’t want to imply here that I am somehow a fearful person, because relative to most people I have very little fear; it’s that fear is something that is part and parcel of living. Everyone has some fear all time and there’s no getting away from it.
Doing the healing opens me up to other people and I feel their presence not because I’ve drawn them to me, but because I’ve focused on them. Whatever I turn my attention to, there it is. A large amount of energy makes me a bit light headed, but it is not the sort of light headed associated with any other sensation because there is a sense of aliveness that comes with it that is not obtainable any other way. I shift my energy presence to healer mode, whatever that is, and this relaxes me. Any surface fears that I have, have to shake out. This healer mode is an altered state of consciousness where all of my focus is on the psychic presence in front of me. Closing my eyes helps because this reduces outside stimulus. I have to turn down my focus on the outside world and turn up my focus on this area. It does not have the solidness of the physical world and in this it is much different from fantasy.
Fantasy is clearly personality driven. The objectives of a fantasy are those same objectives that one finds in life. Sex, money, power, control, all the usual stuff. In general, when I fantasize, my focus does not change much from my regular one. On an emotional level, I’m seeing inside what I see outside. An altered state of consciousness however, is different. It requires a receptive state of mind. All of these normal emotions have to be put aside. I do not generate images in this state, in fact, I don’t see much at all inside my head, everything is a bit blurry. But it has a lot of information associated with it.
Everything that I can see, (although I am hard pressed to describe it as sight.) has feeling as part of it. In fact, this is one of the primary ways that it differs from fantasy. Fantasy has a flat, two dimensional feel to it whereas an altered state of consciousness feels “more real than real.” It is “something” whereas fantasy is “nothing.” I don’t know how else to put it. It goes in and out of focus depending on my ability at the moment. My success at psychic healing depends on my ability to maintain that focus. The more real it is in my mind, the better the results.
There is a kind of balancing act in fact. On the one hand, I have part of my concentration on holding the focus of being in the altered state and on the other hand I am paying attention to what I’m doing. I find that the altered state does not hold on its own, but rather it requires a constant effort and goes away when I no longer give it my attention. In comparison, fantasy does not require this extra effort. Fantasy is not a skill, an altered state of consciousness is. Perhaps the best way I can tell this is when I come back to a normal state of mind. Fantasy almost always leaves me tense and it is most often a relief to return to normal. An altered state of consciousness leaves me relaxed and I have a sense of accomplishment.
When I use my hands and arms to guide the energy during this altered state, it has a vaguely physical feel to it. There is a sensation of actually working with something. I liken it to pushing around floating dough. It can be stretched, pushed, turned or altered in any number of ways, but it still stays what it is. As I do this though, it’s as though I’m mixing light into it, like some sort of cosmic batter and eventually, it takes the shape that it’s supposed to. My focus throughout this is important.
In conclusion, I would have to say that although it is difficult to describe energy, I find it possible to do so. I should mention however, that it took me several days to write this post. I had to write a little bit, go think for awhile and then come back and write some more. It was not easy.
I hope this helps and I certainly invite any comments from people who have their own experiences to share. I think it’s valuable for all of us to start mapping out what we’re experiencing.